CeJay

So maybe, i cry myself to sleep. So maybe, i am hopelessly in love with him. So maybe, my family is messed up. And maybe, my grades are screwy, but that doesn’t mean i need you to point them out for me. I already know i’m not perfect. And news flash you aren’t either. “I’m strong on the surface, but not all the way through. I’ve never been perfect, but neither have you.” - Linkin Park. Sometimes it’s easier to fake a smile and pretend your okay, than having to explain why your not. When i’m upset, and you ask me if i’m okay, it’s pretty obvious that i’m not. And when you ask what’s wrong, it’s pretty obvious i’m not in the mood to talk. And if you were close enough to me, that i’d tell you what’s wrong, you could probably make a wild guess, and be 100% right. I’m going to dream. I’m going to fail. I’m going to want things, i’m not going to get. My only request is that, as a friend, you support me. No matter how much i suck at something, or fail at something. I need you to make me smile, when i’m crying, not make me cry more. I need you to hug me when i’m leaving, not walk away like i was never there. I need you to jump with me when i’m happy, not hold me down and say it’s not a big deal. I need you to be on my side. And if you can do that for me, i’ll do it for you. I try so hard to be empathetic, and i try to be the perfect friend. But sometimes i have to accept that i’m not perfect, and no one is. And if you take a step back and look at everything in your life, you see how amazing everything, and everyone is. You can be truly happy, with even the crappiest life. God does that. He makes hell seem like a haven. Appreciate the little things in life. A silly little thing called happpiness. My point is i’m sorry. For not being there when i should. Not agreeing with you 100% of the time. And i’m sorry for being me. I wish i had the strength to stand up for myself but i don’t. And i can’t express this enough. These two words are as powerful as possible. I’m Sorry.

Hey chicas know some of ya’ll cant get on anymore, but im pretty sure A-Boo can! And I just got tumblr app on mah phone so chat me up when u can, luv u chica!!!